bo*

formspring.me

2010-02-02T02:28:00.001-08:00

awww like how move on as in not even thinking about getting back together? hmm im sure you'll be okay... :) kaya mo yan. ;)

things these past few days have gone too crazy. we fought like hell. kind of fight we never , AS IN NEVER, had before. we're officially over.

so yeaaap. super kelangan na magmove on. ahaha. daming kabullshit-an. but yeap, don't worry babe, i'll be fine. :]

ask, ask, and awayyyyyy ;p

for the millionth time

2010-01-22T02:54:00.000-08:00

i moved.

please relink.

http://dunksandheels.blogspot.com/

sorry for the inconvenience. ♥

taking baby steps.

2010-01-20T02:55:00.000-08:00

start by making a new blogspot.
[i just don't wanna end up backreading on posts..i know, ang arte ko.]

fix multiply tomorrow, maybe.
[para maihiwalay pics namin.]

something happened tonight. i'd rather not get into details. it's not as good as i made it to be.. it's not as good as i try to make myself believe, but i guess it's better.

whatever na lang. we'll see how shit goes..

formspring.me

2010-01-19T20:59:00.001-08:00

post pictures pretty

thank you? :]]
or were u askin me to post more?

nasan ung back button?

it should be on the bottom of the page. it says previous.

ask, ask, and awayyyyyy ;p

it's been..

2010-01-19T18:38:00.000-08:00

4 days.

&& i'm still acting like a fool..

thinking bout him constantly, missin him & all..

hinahayaan ko kasi sarili ko na isipin sya.. kaso ano magagawa ko? eh lahat ng gawin ko nairerelate ko sakanya.. punyeta.

=[

2010-01-18T23:56:00.001-08:00

everything's making me miss you..

everything..

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

2010-01-18T21:58:00.001-08:00

i want to stop missing you already.

right now!

i wanted this.

2010-01-18T18:01:00.000-08:00

but it's funny how life works.. it gives you what you want and it could still break your heart..

somehow, i guess i expected he'd come after me..
this is real na.

i'ma dwell on this shit today, and hopefully tomorrow, i'ma completely start fresh and move on.

inggit?

2010-01-18T17:43:00.001-08:00

`am kuneha: lamo b miyak sha kgbe
Geli Bala: ahaha wtf
Geli Bala: bket
`am kuneha: eh kasi di ba ndi sha ngprmdm or anything the whole day haha. kala nya galit na galit nko
`am kuneha: hahaha
`am kuneha: tas un sorry ng sorry
Geli Bala: wtf
Geli Bala: HAHAHAH
Geli Bala: thats cute tho.
`am kuneha: un pang 4th na text na nea dun nko ngrply
`am kuneha is typing...
`am kuneha: hahaha pakipot ako hahaha
---
Geli Bala: buti p si jjustin.. si erryl.. hais leche
`am kuneha: galit na galit , sbe nea hhuntingin daw nea un mga un pag pnuntahan ako d
`am kuneha: d2
`am kuneha: hahaha
Geli Bala: tangnaaa nabburat ako naiisip ko si erryl
`am kuneha: don't think about him
`am kuneha: think about some other guy
Geli Bala: tanngnaaaaa im trying so hard
Geli Bala: pakingshet this layf pare.
`am kuneha: u can do it danda.
`am kuneha is typing...
`am kuneha: try harder.

ahaha. nakakatuwa lang. nainggit ako bigla kay danda & kay justin.. =|
really wish things were easier done than said..

boy problems* via AIM

2010-01-18T16:07:00.001-08:00

jansen 4:05 pm
    ur too freakin young to have boy problems .. drop him like a bad habit man .. theres other ones out there .. ur a good lookin chick .. ud catch another one quick ..i gaurantee that
its FuCCiNGeLi 4:06 pm
    awww thank you.
    haha
    but i did drop him already
    im just havin problems missin him
jansen 4:06 pm
    pshhhh .. the only problems ur supposed to have .. is choosing the next one
    oh btw, ur always going to have relationship problems ... just the way it works .. haha the older u get .. the more serious ur problems become .. haha then it gets worse lol .. going thru some myself hahaha
its FuCCiNGeLi 4:08 pm
    hahahah
    aww thanks kuya.
    hahahaha

3rd day.

2010-01-18T14:45:00.000-08:00

this is the 3rd day we haven't spoken. well, we txt'd for literally a minute last night, then i turned off my computer. woke up to a bunch of txts from him, basically telling me that he knows i could find someone better, that that's the last shit i'ma get from him.

i watched the videos we had on my facebook. well, at least i initially planned to. i said i'ma watch them for the last time you know? but i couldn't. i only watched two, and felt my tears falling down my cheek while i was watching that video we took at atc. we were singing a duet, nasaan ka na by nyoy. we were hekka sweet. we were smiling, laughing, and kissing like there ain't nothing in this world that could separate us.

yet here we are. i never thought this day would come though.. i've always thought it'd be like before, where we break up then make up hours later.. but this time's different. it's been 3 days now. this is really happening. maybe this is really for the best.

i couldn't let go of him before for hella reasons. he was the sweetest, and he made me so happy.. i loved him more than i loved my own self, and i still do. no lie. but there are some things that i have to do.. things aren't the same as before anymore.. plus, di na nya ako pinipigilan, what's the use of trying to hold on?

mamaya idedelete ko na oovoo ko and chikka. that's the first step ima take. haha gad ang hirap neto. nun 1st & 2nd day di ako umiyak, ngayon lang pala ako tatamaan. siguro it just hit me na " fuck, this is real this time."

i want to regret it, you know? i want to regret all the pain he's caused me. except i couldn't. every minute that i was with him, or talking to him, it was all worth it. i could hate him a bunch of times, but i know deep inside my heart, it was all worth it..

i wish him the best, i really do. it just sucks that i'm not the best for him.. ahaha.. hais. senti modeeeeee. =[

it's raining. i'm hella lazy to do anything.. mm..

mm

2010-01-18T03:44:00.001-08:00

still missing him.. but ima get through this. i have to. =]

:)

2010-01-17T19:17:00.000-08:00

i realized i can't do anything. not anymore. it's almost been 2 days since we last spoke. this is real now. no turning back.

only God knows where you were, and where you're at right now. wherever you are and whatever you're doing with God knows who, i just hope you're fine and in a good condition.

for reals. i don't wish you no harm. i wish you the best still.

i guess i can't really say i regret anything.

i'm happy now. i've realized a lot within these hours that you decided to neglect me..
i don't needa depend anything on you.

i could be happy, even if it means it's without you..

kung totoo yun.. papatunayan nya..

2010-01-17T02:41:00.000-08:00

i woke up this morning, still nothing from him. i waited a couple more hours.. still nothing.. i must've hit my head or something because i didn't cry.. i didn't trip.. all i said was "this shit's enough," then txtd him.

i might regret this later, but right now i really could care less..

i done heard a lot of sorries, a lot of 'i dont wanna lose you' but i was blinded by how much love i have for him, that i couldn't see that these are just words. easy to say, but don't mean shit when he doesn't act upon it.

i'm really tired of stressing, really tired of waiting. tired of getting promises that he doesn't keep. i haven't smiled the whole day, well.. at least not until an hour ago.. talked to one of my friends who made me realize my worth. i am fucking valuable. guys want me even when i'm taken. guys will want me even more when i am single. guys make up their own fucking reason just to get my fucking attention, and i'm here stressing over how i'ma get his attention. just because of this stupid love, i done closed up all of my options and depended my happiness on him. i forgot my own worth. i forgot that my dad told me that i'm pretty, i'm smart, and that i am a good catch. i'm not rushing. i'm not saying there's someone new. i'm just saying that i am done with this. i don't need to stress over a guy. if anything, they should be the one stressing over me. a guy who doesn't know and value what they have, does not deserve it.

yes. i said it. someone who doesn't see my worth does not deserve me. doesn't matter how goodlooking you are, doesn't matter whether you're rich or not, doesn't matter what he's made of.. if he doesn't treat me the way i deserve to be treated, then he does not deserve me..

today i realized that i don't need to settle. i don't want to settle with anything less than i deserve.

i'll miss him.. but i'ma make sure that this time, i'ma fuckin move on.

amp*

2010-01-15T22:03:00.000-08:00

Geli Baller: what if we're not meant to be
Geli Baller: what if someone else is supposed to be takin up ur tiime
BUZZ!!!

Geli Baller: nyeta naman erryl
Ryl Catalig: di ko lam sasabihin ko..
Ryl Catalig: what if nga
Ryl Catalig: like pano kung kabaliktran tau ng what if ni babyface
Geli Baller: di ko alam kung kelan p tayo magkkita..
Ryl Catalig: ok lng un
Ryl Catalig: mkkpgantay nman ako
Geli Baller: sa isang araw madami nan pde mangyare
Geli Baller: sa ilan taon pa kaya.
Geli Baller: pano kung 5 boo?
Geli Baller: pano kung 5 years pa
Ryl Catalig: uu
Ryl Catalig: i can wait
Ryl Catalig: para sa isang tulad ng geli
Ryl Catalig: hihintayin ko kahit 10 years!
Geli Baller: freals boo
Geli Baller: will u?
Ryl Catalig: yeap
Ryl Catalig: i can't promise u
Geli Baller: awww. naiiyak ako
Ryl Catalig: na mawawala ung lalabas ako sa gabi
Geli Baller: sbay i cant promise u
Geli Baller: ah
Geli Baller: haha
Ryl Catalig: gigimik ako
Ryl Catalig: mga tropa kong babae eh bigla nalang mawawala
Ryl Catalig: ung pagiging friendly ko wit dem
Ryl Catalig: na mawawala ung pagseselos mo sakanila
Ryl Catalig: pero ang mapaprmise ko lang sau
Ryl Catalig: kahit gano katagal, hihintayin kita
Ryl Catalig: ikaw parin ang sasabihan ko
Ryl Catalig: ng i do sa harap ni father
Ryl Catalig: kahit di ko pa ipromise yan
Geli Baller: di mo rin kaya ipramis na di mo ko lolokohin..?
Ryl Catalig: di naman kita lolokohin
Ryl Catalig: maybe id lie about the smallest details
Ryl Catalig: pero like
Ryl Catalig: di ko kaya maglie sayo na may karelasyon na ko iba
Ryl Catalig: di ko kasi gagawin un
Geli Baller: eh pano baka may halikan ka
Geli Baller: or isex
Ryl Catalig: wala
Ryl Catalig: di mangyayari un
Geli Baller: mmp. pasalamat ka tlga.
Geli Baller: di p naiimbento ung rason na tlgang makakapagpahiwalay sakin sau ng permanente.
Geli Baller: tangnamo ka.
---

boo bat mahal na mahal kita
Ryl Catalig: idk
Ryl Catalig: kasi alam mo
Ryl Catalig: deep inside
Ryl Catalig: na ako na un!
Geli Baller: eh kaw bat mahal na mahal mo ko
Ryl Catalig: kasi boo
Ryl Catalig: im happy
Ryl Catalig: knowing na akin ka
Ryl Catalig: and pag alam kong di ka akin, nasasaktan ako
Ryl Catalig: that just means
Ryl Catalig: na di ko tlga kaya mabuhay ng walang geli
Ryl Catalig: and thats more than love
Ryl Catalig: life line

kumbaga sa who wants to be a millionaire
Ryl Catalig: kaw ung call a friend
Ryl Catalig: ikaw ung unang papasok sa isip kong tao
Ryl Catalig: pag kailangan ko ng tulong
Ryl Catalig: kasi wala ng 50:50
Geli Baller: eh ano ako katulong
Ryl Catalig: hindi
Geli Baller: sana tulad tau ni ate darling.
Geli Baller: un asawa nya
Geli Baller: bf nya nun 16 pa sya eh.

Ryl Catalig: oo
Ryl Catalig: ganun tau
Ryl Catalig: mas matindi pa

fuhressssssssssssssh*

2010-01-13T18:01:00.001-08:00

It's never too late for a fresh start.

--sabi ng dove chocolate wrapper sa akin.

makes sense.

2010-01-12T20:01:00.001-08:00

Danica Llanes:

hey maybe it's not ur time for now.. but dont close off ur mind.. i know u still love him.. if u guys can still work it out why not? give each other space.. maybe u guys just need to grow up a lil bit more so u can be better when u get together.. *hug

it makes sense. but really, i don't want space. it breaks my heart to see that we probably really need it.

UPDATED//
not too long ago, ibblog ko sana na ok ako, kasi we were txting tas may napagusapan kaming set up. yun ay ang kami parin, pero walang title. para pareho namn magawa ang kahit anong gusto namin, pero di kami papasingit. i kinda liked it. somehow. pero what effed it up was the part na naalala kong wednesday nga pala don at walang pasok. so nagol ako kagad sa ryl.wifeyyy ko.. =[

nakita ko di na sya nakasms. so i msgd him baka nakainvi, chineck ko pa sa ydetect.org , nakaoffline pala talaga. pero chineck ko ung iba nyang mga ym, and nagiging invi tapos offline. paisa isa. ibig sabihin nagpalipat lipat sya. minsg ko isa isa mga un. walang reply. tapos i txtd him. ngayon lang sya nagreply. di naman daw sya nagawa ng bagong ym. tanga. sabi ko nagcheck sya ng mga luma nya. di ko sinabing bago.

more on this later..

as if i'm not dealing wit too much already..

2010-01-12T18:37:00.000-08:00

my annoyingly persistent mom had to constantly bug me about doing nursing, how it pays a lot and what not. i told her i don't want to do it, but i'ma do it anyway, so will she just shut the fuck up?

ugh. pumayag na nga ako paulit ulit pa. andami ko ng problema.

boyfriend na di mo maintindihan kung boyfriend mo pa. tas may nanay ka pa na ayaw kang tantanan.

boyfriend na kami daw, pero di naman nagpaparamdam. boyfriend na kami daw pero magwawall, di magiiloveyou. magttxt tas bglang di magrereply.

seryoso. mahal ko sya. pero bat ganto paulit ulit.

gusto ko ng sumabog. kanina, when i was practicing how to drive, i coulda sworn i just wanted to drive it off the cliff. pero my mom was with me. reality hit me and told me to stop being so selfish.

=/

ayako na..

2010-01-12T02:38:00.001-08:00

ayako na magantay.
yako na na pnagaantay ako.
na tipong he'd do wtver kahit na magantay lang ako kasi nga lagi naman ako nagaantay.

=[
yaw ko na.

love*scope.

2010-01-11T20:44:00.000-08:00

click`m to enlarge**
1. this one's from facebook.

well, on here it says that my instincts will not fail me. except somehow, my instincts are scaring me. it's telling me that i should take another chance at it, that this time things would actually be different. except, this is how i usually feel. i always risk myself again, and i always end up getting hurt. it's kinda shitty you know? not wanting to be with him because of some of the things he says or does hurts me, at the same time wanting to be with him still because nobody could ever make me as happy as he could. the little txt msgs, or short ass phone calls, they all count. i miss you's and i love you's.. they still make me smile, just like when he first told me how he felt about me, looking into my eyes. life's unfair. i wish they'd make the wrong choices look so ugly, that way i'd know better. =|

2. these are from yahoo.

this one's my horoscope. i don't really know which one to look at. aha. kung yung daily singles or daily couple. i seriously don't know where we stand right now. pero yahoo made being single sound so mm worry free. yung sa weekly naman. mejo lang. kasi i was at that point na parang gusto ko na gumive up, ready na eh, i was so ready to stop giving a fuck, pero wala eh. madly inlove kasi. the part where it says that nothing is coming out right and i am being frequently misunderstood, yan totoo. ahaha. it's how we started fighting. choice of words ko. i guess. sa monthly naman, sabi good headspace sa 11th. 11th na. i guess, mejo matino utak ko ngaun. i had my nails and eyebrows done, so mejo chill ako. pero how's my heart? it doesn't seem any better than yesterday, or the day before. mm ano kaya mangyyari sa 16, 21, 27, 28 at 31? ang alam ko lang basta, sa 16th, magpapamisa si mommy. 1st death anniversary kasi ni mama.

this one's Ryl's naman. kung sa couples mo titignan, something new daw. bagong approach siguro. ewan. yung single? ayoko nga intindihin un. tapos sa weekly, surprise daw in the love realm. mm. it better be coming from me. aha.. mm. then sa monthly, feel pretty good about each other daw on the 10th & 11th. well mejo nagkabati kami kahit papaano kahapon, and he called me kanina. so i guess.. tas special watch on days 15, 16, 17, 21, 25, 30. mm di kami magkamatch ng dates. pero kung iisipin mo na may time difference kami (for example, 16 dito, 17 don. 31 dito, 30 don.) so ano kaya mangyare sa mga dates na to? mm.

almost.

2010-01-11T16:20:00.000-08:00

it was an almost. a good one. a happy one. i was smiling. then he said he was going to wash his face cuz he's going to sleep na. then i told him that i thought he'd stay up till whenever for me last night since his class today isn't until 1pm. then he said he just said that. =|

puro pacute lang pala. what hit me is, pano ung iba nyang sinabi? pacute lang din till i get back? =[

ang gulo.
maybe it really isn't the right time for us. i'm still paranoid, and he's starting to tell me things again that he wasn't even planning on doing.

this is all confusing.
i want to be with him. i love him. but this is all confusing.

it's heartbreaking, but i guess we actually really need time to grow up, and find out what we really want. =[

ewan.

2010-01-11T06:34:00.001-08:00

ko sayo.

i love you gelatin*

2010-01-11T05:32:00.000-08:00

so ryl & i are in the process of trying to get back together then..

Ryl Catalig (1/11/2010 5:28:24 AM): tinext mo si tin?
Geli Baller (1/11/2010 5:28:31 AM): inde
Geli Baller (1/11/2010 5:28:33 AM): baket
Ryl Catalig (1/11/2010 5:28:37 AM): nag txt sakin
Geli Baller (1/11/2010 5:28:40 AM): ano sbi
Ryl Catalig (1/11/2010 5:28:42 AM): if ever daw na bumalik ka sakin
Ryl Catalig (1/11/2010 5:28:45 AM): ingatan na daw kita
Geli Baller (1/11/2010 5:28:49 AM): awwww
Ryl Catalig (1/11/2010 5:28:51 AM): mahal na mahal mo daw ako
Geli Baller (1/11/2010 5:28:57 AM): she did??
Geli Baller (1/11/2010 5:28:59 AM): awww
Ryl Catalig (1/11/2010 5:29:00 AM): yea
Ryl Catalig is typing...
Ryl Catalig (1/11/2010 5:29:06 AM): pinatxt mo ata ako eh
Geli Baller (1/11/2010 5:29:08 AM): i didnt txt her tho
Geli Baller (1/11/2010 5:29:09 AM): no

i swear to God, i didn't ask her to txt him, but i was really touched. she's one true friend, going out of her way to txt Ryl and tell him that. that was really sweet. aww.

i love you gelatin*! ♥

nananadya ang facebook.

2010-01-11T04:30:00.000-08:00

3 bes ko lang to tinry. di ko dinoktor. pero 3 beses din ako sinapul.

alam mo yung feeling..

2010-01-11T04:01:00.000-08:00

na sabi mo ayaw mo na. naannounce mo na sa mga tropa mo. desidido ka na. binura mo na yung chikka, binura mo oovoo. dineactivate mo fb, at gumawa ka bagong y!m. pag tumatawag sya, para kang walang gana makipagusap. basta pinutol mo na lahat ng pwede maging koneksyon.

tas biglang nagcheck ka ng luma mong ym.. online sya. minsg mo sya para lang sabihing u hate him. nagaway kayo. sa mga sinabi nya, asar na asar ka. parang pinipili nnmn ang pride nya over you. magogoodbye nalang halos.. may magic pa.

napunta sa dramahan. labasan ng totoong feelings. kahit pagbalibaliktarin ang mundo.. di mo pala talaga kayang mawala sya.

madali humanap ng lalake. madami naman nanliligaw sakin. di naman ako panget! skyusme.

pero wala. these past few days i've been feeling shitty. i don't think i've smiled at all. i go to sleep around 6 am, and wake up at 6pm. minsan nga ayoko pang bumangon. pero i have to. tas when we talked..

everything changed.

at least nung sa sweet part na. yung he wants me back. i smiled. naguguluhan ako ngaun. oo. di ko alam if i should go back or not. pero i was really happy.

kulit ng buhay noh?
kung sino pa ung pinakanakasakit sayo.. sya lang ang talagang kayang magpatawa sayo.. labo.

cliffhanger vs. badboys ii.

2010-01-11T02:28:00.000-08:00

ang gulo namin, boyy`..
Geli Baller: i guess.
Geli Baller: i really wish u the best.
Ryl Catalig: ako rin..
Geli Baller: u deserve the best.
Ryl Catalig: nah
Geli Baller: i know iv put u thru a lot.
Ryl Catalig: i only dserve sum1 good
Ryl Catalig: u know u d best
Geli Baller: if i was, u wouldnt let me go..
Ryl Catalig: di mo ba naisip minsan..
Ryl Catalig: na baka kaya ko pala nagawa un..
Ryl Catalig: kasi ur too good for me..
Ryl Catalig: na ako na pala ung di dserving magkaron ng tulad mo..
Geli Baller: di mo ba naisp na kaya i always let uback into my life
Ryl Catalig: papantay nalang ako sa level ko..
Geli Baller: kasi i believe na ur the one for me?
Geli Baller: na ikaw na ung gusto ko
Geli Baller: na i want u forever and a week.
Geli Baller: na ikaw ung mahal ko
Ryl Catalig: mahal na mahal kita..
Geli Baller: na kaya ako laging nagseselos
Geli Baller: kasi gusto ko akin ka lang
Ryl Catalig: mahal kita geli..
Ryl Catalig: kung alam mo lang..
Geli Baller: kasi malayo ako
Geli Baller: wala ako magawa
Ryl Catalig: nasasaktan ako pag sinasabi mo na
Geli Baller: hanggang away lang
Ryl Catalig: wag ko sabihin un, na para bang ayaw mo mangaling sakin..
Geli Baller: because if u really love me ryl
Ryl Catalig: totoo naman mahal kita..
Geli Baller: u wouldnt let me go.
Geli Baller: mattkot ka na di n tau maguusap
Geli Baller: kasi i told u
Geli Baller: na if u let me go
Geli Baller: di na ako magpaparamdam
Ryl Catalig: di kita ni let go
Geli Baller: pero inayaan mo ko.
Ryl Catalig: its a good thing
Ryl Catalig: lam mo ung parang sa clifhanger
Ryl Catalig: like i was still holdin on to u
Ryl Catalig: tapos malalaglag na tayo
Ryl Catalig: na i had to cut the rope
Ryl Catalig: so u can save urself
Ryl Catalig: na hahayaan ko nalang ako ung bumagsak
Geli Baller: lam mo ung sa badboys ii.
Geli Baller: ung we ride together, we die together.
Ryl Catalig: para ikaw naman ung mabuhay
Ryl Catalig: aww..
Ryl Catalig: i want u back in my life
Geli Baller: ive always wanted u in it.
Ryl Catalig: deserving ba ko?
Ryl Catalig: karapatdapat ba na magkaron ako ng tulad mo
Geli Baller: i think i deserve to be wit someone that i love the most.
Geli Baller: i think i havent done shit so wrong to not deserve u.
Geli Baller: but if u thinkn that i dont kaya ur pushing me away
Geli Baller: then idk..
Geli Baller: i think u desrve to be wit the one u love the most too.
Geli Baller: pero kung hindi ako un.
Geli Baller: ewan ko
Ryl Catalig: i love you the most
Geli Baller: so i deserve u. and u deserve me.

formspring.me

2010-01-11T00:22:00.001-08:00

What's your biggest phobia?

to lose erryl.

but then i just did. so would that mean that i'm not scared of anything anymore? :]]

ask, ask, and awayyyyyy ;p

decided*

2010-01-10T23:36:00.000-08:00

so i've decided to stick with blogspot (sorry for the inconvenience). there's just too much good memories on this thing that i don't want to just throw away.. that's all i've got left now..

*plus ayoko narin ng tumblr. nauso na eh. andami na nakikiuso. :]]

3:47am, yesterday. "ayaw ko na sa'yo!"
who would've thought that those words could hurt so much and cause me to cry for hours? .. events after that weren't any better..

HELL NO*

2010-01-10T23:14:00.000-08:00

how could you leave?

veintinueve.

2010-01-10T22:39:00.001-08:00

did you know today was supposed to be our 29th monthsary?
well, actually bukas pa. it's just that, 11 na sa pinas..
heartbreaking, isn't it?

happy monthsary. i love you. still. nothing's changed. nothing ever will...

YOU'RE FUCKN STUPID.

2010-01-10T18:10:00.001-08:00

“i think what i did, letting her go, is the
only good thing i did right for her.”

how dare you decide what’s right and what’s not for me?
how dare you decide without my consent?
how dare you make plans without me in it?

you think this is the only good thing you did for me?

good was when you stuck by me when i was being a bitch about everything. good was when you stayed each time i try to push you away. good was when we fight about the stupidest things, say sorry, and say i love you, and get back together again. good was when you never asked me to leave, you always wanted me to stay.

THIS IS THE WORST THING YOU HAVE EVER DONE FOR ME.
and i hate you for this. i hate you because no matter how much i try to not think of you, the opposite happens. i can’t get you out of my head, not even for one second. i hate the fact that i know deep down inside, no matter how much what you did to me hurts, no matter how many times i’ve said that i don’t want this anymore, i know i still do. you know i still do. i thought you knew me better.

i thought you knew that the best thing you could do for me was to stay with me forever..

underconstruction

2010-01-02T01:47:00.001-08:00

pakshet sira ata blogger. swear gusto ko lumipat. di ko lang talaga alam kung saan. =x

new year ♥

2010-01-02T00:04:00.000-08:00

first kiss for 2010.

cute nan boyfriend ko noh? ♥

NEW YEAR `09-`10 from geli b. on Vimeo.

=]]

2010-01-01T22:37:00.001-08:00

nahanap ko. lalang. feel ko lang ipost. ;]]

players.

2009-12-31T01:33:00.000-08:00

every guy's a player. at least at some point in their lifetime. it'll be hard to find a guy nowadays who won't be checkin out other females, and won't be flirting when his girl isn't around. i'm not saying it's alright, i'm not trying to justify their actions. i guess what i'm trying to say is, kung pipili ka lang din ng player na mamahalin, dun ka na sa player na ikaw ung binabalikan, hindi yung ikaw ang iniiwan. yung ikaw yung mahal, hindi yung ikaw yung pampalipas libog lang. yung kahit mahirap, kahit minsan sablay parin sila, they still try for you. diba? ♥

ANYWAYS;;

went to ontario mills today. we got there a little late kasi mommy ko picture pa ng picture sa sala. lolx. well my dad gave me and my sisters money to go shopping. i think it's his gift na haha. :]] kaso we didn't have much time kasi hanggang 9 lang ung mall, and my mom got hungry so yan lang nabili ko. ang bullshit ah! 1)suklay , 2)eyeshadow and eyebrow definer, 3)cigarette case. bwahaha walangya. i thought i wasn't going to spend much kasi the make up was on sale, kaso hello, for a stupid brush $9!?! pero syempre mas stupid ako, binili ko eh. tapos yung cig case was like 8bucks plus tax pa. so naka $30 mahigit din ako. leche lang eh. :]] well i had fun though. lol. next time, lighter naman pupunteryahin ko, i'ma have my name engraved on it. tapos we ate at Coco's. ahah it's my first time eating there. damn i got hekka full. i had shrimp & lobster pasta and steak! tas xmpre, nakishare pa with my sister sa baked potato nya and sa steak nya! ahaha, ang takaw ko. :]] all in all this night is good so far. i mean, saktong paguwi ko pa nagusap kami kagad ni boyfriend!

let's see how this ends, shall we?

daddy <3

2009-12-30T13:31:00.000-08:00

i think 2009's the first in hella years that my dad and i have been this close. that's one of the few things i loved about this year. we joked around a lot, and my sisters & i actually love having him around now. lol. before it was all like, when he's home, we barely go out of our room. this year it's actually different. at least it all sort of started when i got back from the Philippines. we talk so much more than we used to. i remember how we used to be so close when i was a kid, but you know how it goes. teenage years come and it's like a phase, you just grow apart from your father. i'm really glad we're in really better terms now. not to mention the shopping and movie trips, and the buffets! ahahaha. ;]]

my dad's the best. i never appreciated him the way he should be appreciated before. i guess i might have been blinded by past events, but now i know i could safely say and surely say that my dad is the best father ever.

he's been really understanding, and very forgiving. i never saw it before, but i know he just wants the best for my sisters and i. he doesn't want anything less for us. kahit sa material things or sa food, he was never the one who goes stingy on us.

you know what made me smile today? even tho i think he just said that so i'd stop wearing make up. ahaha. but really it made me smile. he said, "mas maganda ka pag walang make up."

lol another thing. natatawa ako sa mga sarcastic trips namin. tulad nung one time may chicharon:
dad: is that chicharon?
geli: noooo.
dad: yes it issss!
or nung umakyat sya at nilipat ko ung tv. pagbaba nya
dad: nilipat mo ba?
geli: di ah.
dad: nilipat mo eh.
geli: inde!
[kahit obyus naman kasi ako lang asa baba.]

ahah. =]]

i love you dad. i hope you know that. ♥

toodles, finna fix up, my whole fam's going out right when my mom gets off work! ;p~

sikat ?

2009-12-30T02:48:00.000-08:00

ahahaha. sikat na rin me! fumoformspring na! anyways, natuwa ako kasi i barely get questions on my formspring. ;]] babaw much?

anyways, i got these questions sa formspring ko. [click to enlarge nalang.]

first off, sa nagpost nung latest, i got to give you credit. nagawa mo kong pagisipin. [and i rarely do that. HAHA] 2nd, imposibleng tropa kita. 3rd. kung totoo man to, ba't ngayon mo lang sinabi? ba't in public pa? and ba't di ka nagpakilala?

anyways, real talk and no lies, this did bug me. i'm trying to figure out who wrote these comments on my formspring, and kung tropa ko talaga. i've got all kinds of negativity running through my head. you don't even know. it's true. it's nothing new that my boyfriend played around before, but that's the PAST. we both made mistakes and planned to leave them behind, never to be repeated again. so whatever happened before, it'd hurt me, but it's not going to ruin us. i mean, kung nakasubaybay kayo sa love story namin, it's pretty obvious na di pa naiimbento ang bagay na permanenteng sisira saamen, diba?

what matters to me is the present. what we've got going on right now. sure i still have my jealousy trips, and my occassional "you didnt text/call me" trips, and the whole when he decides to bring back the past that i sooo hate hearing about. but through all this bullshit that's been happening, the breaking up to make up trips.. i realized how strong we were. so i'm not bout to let the past ruin our present just like how i let it ruin us before. plus kahit selosa ako, i know somewhere deep down inside of me, that he'll never cheat on me again. although i probably can't change the fact that he's a flirt, but trust, he only does that to boost his ego. haha. natutuwa sya pag may kumakagat. so sorry nalang sa kumagat.

hais. pero aminado ako, kanina pa ako napapaisip sino nagiwan nyan. sabi ng friend ko, si Rixx, na siguro di ko tropa ngleave nun, siguro ex ni boo na gusto kami paghiwalayin. may point. and sabi naman ni boo.. ahaha. eto picture. :]] click nalang.

may pakialam ako kung sino sumulat non. oo gusto ko malaman. pero sorry to say, wala rin ako pakialam sa sasabihin mo kung totoo man yan. nagbago na ang boyfriend ko. pinaniniwalaan ko yan. at kahit na th ako, sya nalang ang paniniwalaan ko. mahal ako non. mahal na mahal ako non ♥.

kung sa tingin nyo sa akin sya nagsisinungaling, itanong mo sa sarili mo.. baka pinagtripan ka lang nya noon. =]

sabi nga ni keri hilson: people give you advice based upon their own experiences, or what they themselves would be capable of accomplishing. always remember that.

kaya pakyu ka. kung sa totoong tropa ko nga at pamilya ko di ako nakikinig sayo pa kaya na di ko kilala? yaan mo nalang ako sa buhay ko. kung niloloko nya man ako o di, problema ko na yun. kung wala kayong prueba o ano man, just shut the hell up. dagdag sakit ulo lang kayo. plus you're wasting your time. isn't it obvious by now that it's going to take so much more than that to permanently break us up?

puta. adik?

2009-12-30T00:14:00.001-08:00

gusto ko ng bagong blog. ahaha. or isang malupit pero simpleng layout.
san pa ba magandang blogsite??

glad i gave it another shot.

2009-12-29T00:44:00.000-08:00

Ryl Catalig kanta ko sayo, promise. magbabago na ako. ♥

HinDi Ako KatuLad Nya!!!

www.youtube.com

Pra S NHaL Koh!!! Kahit Ayw Na sa AKIn....

» so he posted this on my facebook, tas eto yung convo namin sa y!m:
Ryl Catalig: i love you
Geli Baller: i love you too.
Geli Baller: ano to pinoy rap nanamn
Geli Baller: aha
Ryl Catalig: di po
Geli Baller: haha ok ima listen to it
Geli Baller: jeremiah?
Geli Baller: hahahahaha
Ryl Catalig: uu
Ryl Catalig: its a cute song
Geli Baller: san ung part na magbabago sya
Geli Baller: wala nmn sa kanta
Ryl Catalig: i know
Ryl Catalig: pero kanta ko yan sa sarili ko yan
Geli Baller: di ko gets
Geli Baller: kanta mo sayo
Ryl Catalig: wala na si erryl
Geli Baller: pero asa wall ko
Ryl Catalig: kanta ko sayo
Ryl Catalig: for me
Geli Baller: kanta mo for me for you?
Ryl Catalig: wala na si erryl na pinapaiyak ka
--

Geli Baller: i wish ur mom had the chance to see how u are right now.
Geli Baller: for sure super proud un sau like how i am.
Ryl Catalig: hmm
Ryl Catalig: di bale na lang
Ryl Catalig: tsaka na
Ryl Catalig: pag grad na ko
Ryl Catalig: at pag di ko na
Ryl Catalig: napapaiyak
Ryl Catalig: ung babae
Ryl Catalig: na gustong gusto nia
Ryl Catalig: for me
Ryl Catalig: sana lang andun sia sa kasal natin

AWWWWW ♥
i hate how he knows the right words to say.
i just fell inlove again.

love ko tong mga itey. ♥

2009-12-28T22:20:00.000-08:00

dani`babe. atir. bebe koh.
[danica. rita. gia.]

kanina may nangyare. kung maaga ka nakabisita dito, alam mo un, kung di naman, late ka. pero etong 3 to ang talagang may alam ng pawang katotohanan. :]]

thank you blog iteyyy.

thank you sa walang sawang pakikinig sa stories ko, at papalit palit ng desisyon ko. at syempre sa pagsusuporta sakin kahit minsan alam ko katangahan ang pinili ko.

love ko kayo! real talk. ♥

no letting go.

2009-12-28T06:48:00.000-08:00

Ryl Catalig: sorry na
Ryl Catalig: boo
Ryl Catalig: alis lang ako ha
Ryl Catalig: i love you
Geli Baller: lets just end this.
Ryl Catalig: kalimutan mo na yun
Ryl Catalig: kk
Geli Baller: na..
Ryl Catalig: kaya nga
Geli Baller: minamadali mo lng nmn ako diba
Geli Baller: para makaalis ka.
Ryl Catalig: kalimutan mo na un
Ryl Catalig: alis na ko boo
Ryl Catalig: i love you
Geli Baller: no
Geli Baller: i mean lets end this.
Geli Baller: lets end us.
Ryl Catalig: kaw bahala
Ryl Catalig: ewan ko sayo
Ryl Catalig: mahal kita kk
Ryl Catalig: i love you
Geli Baller: no.
Geli Baller: dont even tell me that.
Ryl Catalig: i love you a lot!
Geli Baller: not anymore.
Geli Baller: dont.
Geli Baller: cuz u dont.
Ryl Catalig: kulit
Ryl Catalig: ayoko magbreak tau
Ryl Catalig: wag ka makulit
Ryl Catalig: hintayin mo ko
Geli Baller: baket
Ryl Catalig: uuwi ako agad
Ryl Catalig: i love you
Geli Baller: san ka ppnta
Geli Baller: bat mo ko mnamadali
Ryl Catalig: may sisingilin lang ako
Geli Baller: bat ako magaantay
Geli Baller: ano mamumuti nnmn mata ko
Ryl Catalig: aaahhhh
Ryl Catalig: di
Ryl Catalig: sleep k n if u want
Geli Baller: nah. its ok.
Geli Baller: take ur sweet time
Ryl Catalig: i love you ok
Geli Baller: like u always do.
Ryl Catalig: lets not break up
Ryl Catalig: i love you
Ryl Catalig: dali na
Ryl Catalig: i love you ko na!
Geli Baller: stop saying that
Geli Baller: cuz thats not how u feel
Geli Baller: stop telln me u love me
Geli Baller: kung mmya ipapamukha mo nnmn sakn
Geli Baller: na nagkamali ka
Geli Baller: na bumalik ka pa
Ryl Catalig: kulit mo boo
Ryl Catalig: i love you
Geli Baller: break na tayo.
Ryl Catalig: wag
Geli Baller: kugn sinsbi mo lang yan
Geli Baller: dahl
[boo started calling me on oovoo]
Geli Baller: kung snsbi mo lang yan
Geli Baller: kasi sinabi ko na sabi natin dati
Geli Baller: di na tau ppyag
Geli Baller: u dont have to do it anymore
[tas nagsasalita sya sa oovoo talking about he doesn't want to break up]
Geli Baller: ano
Geli Baller: yea
Geli Baller: no.
Geli Baller: no.
[ayan nakikipagbati na.. telling me na natatawa daw sya nung nagddrama sya kanina, hanggang narealize nya na tinotoo ko at galit na ako.. tas pinapatawa nya ako by telling me to look at my face sa cam. (he knows how much i hate seeing myself all ugly, natatawa ako. and aun natawa rin ako.)]
Geli Baller: lagi k nmn gnyan
Geli Baller: bbatiin mo ko
Geli Baller: tas aawayin mo ko
Geli Baller: ppmukha mo nnmn sakn ginawa ko
Geli Baller: n mtagal ko nmn na pnagsisihan
Geli Baller: ano
[he's telling me how alis lang sya saglit and matulog daw ako, and pag balik nya at gising pa ako, then we'll talk.]
Geli Baller: ok..
Geli Baller: loveu
[tas nainis sya kasi di buo i love you ko nung nagpaalam na sya na aalis..]
Geli Baller: i love you
Ryl Catalig has signed back in. (12/28/2009 6:41 AM)

hais erryl. bakit ba kahit anong gawin mo, di ko magawang humiwalay sayo?
pero i'm hella thankful.. kasi first time in hella recent break ups, kinulit nya ako na wag na makipagbreak. di nya ako hinayaan na makipagbreak.. nanyare ung promise namin sa isa't isa na pag may nagsuggest ng break up, di kami papayag. ♥

tangina.

2009-12-27T19:20:00.001-08:00

naguguluhan ako. :(

i don't want it anymore
2009-12-27T14:00:00.001-08:00
enough said. moving on :]]
you're a good ass liar.
i don't think i could ever find somebody better than you.
you're the best at this game.

you hung yourself 10 feet over the edge.

inggitera.

2009-12-27T08:11:00.000-08:00

xoxo.betch Hate: aw. idk emotera. s pgkakaalm ko nmn takot tlga c ryl mwla k. he just cnt say no to girls. un ang prob s knya.
xoxo.betch Hate: isa p everybody knows n ikw tlga gusto ni ryl.
xoxo.betch Hate: haiz, sabi ko nmn syo, mahal ka ni ryl. di lng nya kya kontrolin sarili nya pgdting s girls.

thanks for tryna cheer me up inggitera. ♥

major wasak.

2009-12-27T07:12:00.000-08:00

read something i wish i never have read..
but i guess this is for the best.. things happen for a reason..
maybe God wanted to save me from a major heartache.

i love him still. no doubt.
but i don't know anymore..

ganto pala..
pag akala mo mahal ka nya talaga.. for more than 2 years yun ang pinaniwalaan mo..
only to find out that he loves his ex still, and wished they were still together.. if only she hadn't fucked up..

i haven't talked to him yet.. pero syempre, what i've read couldn't have been a lie.. di naman nila alam na mapupunta ako dun sa page na yun.. he's a good liar.. he should've just stuck wit her.. no wonder he was never able to leave her.. :(

bob marley..

2009-12-27T02:04:00.000-08:00

he’s not perfect. you aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. but if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. he isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. don’t analyze. smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. love hard when there is love to be had. because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you. -- Bob Marley.

i should've just tried to be understanding. should've just been thankful for having you. basta madaming should've. :(

i miss you. come back to me na.. i love you.

2009-12-26T17:38:00.000-08:00

let go of what kills you and hold on to what keeps you breathing -- spongebob.

so how do you deal when they're both in one person?
ang bullshit.

you try to let go of the past that keeps on killing the stupid relationship, but he kept on bringing it back to life. you want to hold on to him cuz he's the main reason you want to live and have a good life, so you could be happy when you start spending your forever with him, pero pano nga yon kung sha mismo ang naghohold on to the things that kill me?

=/
2009-12-26T17:31:00.000-08:00
i cannot fully explain how i am feeling, neither do i feel like blogging, but i feel like letting some steam out. the 23rd was a shitty night. i didn't get an expected phone call, and to add up to that, i didn't get shit from him the whole day on the 24th.

the 25th was ok. at least i thought it was going well until recent events..
nobody was getting mad, except for my mom. she was rushing us because we were about to be late for the christmas mass. my sister & i were taking forever getting ready. i didn't even get to curl my hair anymore or put on my falsies like i initially planned. went to mass and had brunch at denny's. everybody was happy. i kind of liked it. we were just taking pictures while waiting for our food and talking shit about each other. it was funny. then we convinced dad to go see avatar. we saw it in 3d. it was sooo good that my dad couldn't stop talking about the movie till we got home. then there, i curled my hair and then retouched my make up, then we went to my aunt's. it's where we usually spend the holidays. they got crab legs and shrimp and bomb ass sauce. then saw my cousins, and even talked to my favorite cousin (whom i havent spoken to in hella weeks because of his exgf.), thanks to marlboro lights. we were just smoking the night away, taking pics, and playing with my little nephews and nieces. then he called. after a day of not txting me, not msging me, no nothing, he called. yes, i was pissed. i wasn't even planning to answer the damn phone, but i missed him so much so i did. worked things out then we were fine. then i got home.. went online, then talked to him on oovoo.. then the next thing i know, couple minutes before midnight, my tears were falling down my cheek because we were breaking up.. shut down my laptop, and cried myself to sleep with my ipod blasting. the shitty part was when i kept on waking up almost every hour, remembering what just happened, and crying my eyes out some more.. then i think it was around 4am when we started chatting again. he actually left me an offline msg on ym and a wall on facebook hours before that, telling me that we should work things out. so when we started chatting, we did. but then i still couldn't sleep so i just went online while he went to his cousin's. then he came back. i could've sworn i was so happy cuz the minute i was about to go back to bed, he went on, waking up my senses, basta. we went on oovoo. asaran and all that. idk how it went from pacute to another break up talk..

ganda ng pasko ko noh? 2 break ups in 1 day. san ka pa?
..
kaya after nung break up na un, pinatay ko na cellphone ko.. tas natulog ako.. then when i woke up, i started cleaning.. binuksan ko ulit cp ko tas may msg sya saying na matutulog na sya and he loves me..

wth was that supposed to mean? aha..
gulong gulo na ako.. ang hirap pag nagmamahal ka ng totoo..

hirap ka na na you want to let go.. but you're too inlove to just let that happen..
ang bullshit ng buhay..

punong puno ng bullshit.

adik.

2009-12-24T02:38:00.000-08:00

pakshet. gusto ko nanaman ng bagong layout. :]]
gusto ko sana yung katulad ng sa tumblr ko eh. (oo, itatanong nyo, eh di bat di nalang sa tumblr ako magblog? ang sagot ko: mas madaming features ek ek dito, at madali iedit ba. basta un na un. )

**kaya kung alam nyo pano, HELP!

the difference

2009-12-24T00:58:00.001-08:00

between us is the fact that..

YOU- are just one of them.

I- am his only one. ♥

answeet. :]]

2009-12-24T00:20:00.000-08:00

so kagabi un diba? or nung isang gabi? ung naburat ako kasi di sya nagrreply. tas inaway ko sya kasi sabi ko ba't ka nagunli eh alam mong wala akong globe ngayon.. tas ngaung araw lang na to ng msg`an mga to. :]] ang sweet. ♥

1]

:]`09 `12: Nklmtn ko sbhn sau
:]`09 `12: Nag txt c ryl mypnpsbi sya
:]`09 `12: D ko nmn nsbi
:]`09 `12: Sbi nia
:]`09 `12: Bout dun sa ngng decision mo
:]`09 `12: Den lam nia nmn daw na mdi sya ung ryt guy someyhng and my mhhnp ka pa daw na muchnetter sa knya
:]`09 `12: Antok na ksi ako kaya d ko nsbi agd sau

2]

Tin Nicole Macalino woi. late ko nnman sya mssbi sau late ndin kc nitxt skin ni ryl eh . kagabi! sorry daw sa lahat ng ginawa nia. mahal na mahal kadw nia . kht ano dw mngyri ndi mag bbgo pagmamal nia for you.

fuck.

2009-12-23T23:58:00.000-08:00

i hate what's happening. aha. like super boredom, i was looking through old blogs, then parang pinagsama sama ko, and everything sort of makes sense. and it's all leading up to this conclusion na i don't want to think about. it's the past na, and i said that i was going to forget about it na, but it bugs. big time.

oh my gad. get out of my stupid head.

auntie telly ♥

2009-12-23T23:36:00.001-08:00

di nagrereply si boo :| so nagbasa ako nan luma kong blog. then i found this. i really wish i had the chance to meet her.

SATURDAY, JANUARY 24, 2009

mommy number 2. =]]

feel ko ipagkalat. this is a convo between me and auntie telly, my boyfriend's mommy. she's soo sweet. i like her ♥ . saya knowing i wouldn't havta deal wit a bitchy mom in law in the future. =] yay. love my boo. & his rents. they're the sweetest.

telly_catalig: study well..i heard you're going to spend your school vacation in June in the Philippines
Geli Baller: opo. that's the plan.
Geli Baller: ive been saving up for it na nga po eh. pretty excited to go back there
telly_catalig: i hope it would pushed through as planned...
telly_catalig: Erryl misses you a lot
Geli Baller: i hope so too
Geli Baller: i do too tita
telly_catalig: continue to encourage Erryl to study well like he did last sem,
telly_catalig: sana much better pa this sem
Geli Baller: he did great last time noh po? im proud of him nga eh
Geli Baller: hes been studying naman po eh. like when he gets home he does homework first.
telly_catalig: yes, he's got good grades last sem..you truly inspire him..wag ka lang magsasawa
Geli Baller: di naman po nakakasawa si erryl eh.
--
telly_catalig: oo nga
telly_catalig: be good in your studies so that your mom and dad will be happy. If you need help for your trip to the Phils just let me know basta it's okay with your parents para wala tayong problem
Geli Baller: nagaaral naman po ako ng mabuti eh
Geli Baller: and thank you po.
Geli Baller: thank you din po pala ulit sa help nyo last time
telly_catalig: all the time, basta you and Erryl are happy, we are also happy
--
telly_catalig: 3 years lang iyon
telly_catalig: trimester kasi..kung hindi trimester 4 years
telly_catalig: mabilis naman iyon..makatiis pa kaya kayo?
Geli Baller: nakatiis nga po ako 1 year eh. haha. and ima try to go visit him naman po when i can
Geli Baller: i hope he can tho.
telly_catalig: if ever ok na iyong visa niya, i will make sure that he comes here during school vacation
Geli Baller: thank you po tita!
Geli Baller: mm thank you din po pala for accepting me as his girlfriend.
Geli Baller: i havent met you yet you're so nice na po to me.
telly_catalig: well..we could ask for more... you're a beautiful person inside and out and you're inspiring Erryl to be a good person
Geli Baller: thank you po!
telly_catalig: i mean we couldn't ask for more
telly_catalig: sige, magsasaing pa ako..take care and always be good. You and Erryl continue to inspire each other and keep other happy

merry christmas <3

2009-12-23T03:07:00.000-08:00

it's the 23rd na sa pinas, bukas? noche buena.
this'll be the 3rd christmas na di kami nakapagsimba gabi together, or noche buena, and di nagcelebrate together. oh the disadvantages of a long distance relationship. ahaha, you wanna know another fact? usually around this time of the year, nagbbreak kami. ahaha. not that i'm expecting a break up, but i'm just sayin, if ever i start blogging like that again, don't be surprised.

alala ko last year, we broke up and talked bout how maybe it's better off that way, pero the funny part was it didn't even seem like we did. he still called me a lot, we still talked a lot, txtd. said i love you's and i miss you's to each other. and i still got jealous. we still talked about how basically bawal kami magdate. ahaha. well, may bullshit na "sabihin mo sakin pag may iba na.." pero mamaya "tangina mo me kasama ka noh? sino? bawal!" shit like that.

i guess what i'm trying to say is that it amazes me na no matter how many shit we've been through, like no matter how parang araw araw away bati kami, kahit na parang pa-downhill na kami, somehow we still manage to pick things up and make it work, kahit on times when it seems like miracle nalang talaga magsosolve. i've cried so many rivers for this guy already, but the smiles and the laughters .. it couldn't compare. i don't think anyone has ever made me feel that way. ever. he's something special.

christmas don't really feel like christmas.. just like the last 2 christmases i've had, but either way, i'ma make this wish:

first off, i hope everyone's happy on this special day. no problems, no sad faces, no heartbreaks. just a lot of food, and gifts, and love. lots of love. just no making love with my boyfriend. bwahaha. :]] then for my personal wish: sana kahit anong mangyare, kahit na there are times when giving up sounds like the easiest and best choice to make, sana one of us will remember to remind the other one how much we've been through, and how much we really love each other, na pag parang di kaya nung isa, sana suportahan nung isa para di bumigay. it'll take a long ass time pa before i get to be with you {yes, you, my boyfriend}, and sana for the meantime that we aren't together, sana you'd still be loyal, well-behaved (that means knowing your limits & your boundaries) , faithful, and sana you won't ever lose hope that we're going to last. next time na ako magddrama. aha. i love you. ♥

o cge na, papahinga na ako. may movie date pa kami ni boyfriend mamaya. :]]
ano kaya mapanood? kimmydora o princess & the frog?

videophone. :]]

2009-12-22T23:52:00.000-08:00

yan, nagaway kasi kami . dito ko nilabas galit ko. i know di kami magkamukha, sadya kasing mas mahal make up nya at napakalaki ng mata ko, sabay sablay pa ung pagdrawing ko nung putangnang itim sa mata ko, pero, sa tingin mo? ok naman diba? :]]

PS. bati na kami. nothing new. ♥

i bug. :]

2009-12-22T19:28:00.000-08:00

Ryl Catalig: sinabi ko lang
Geli Baller: eh bat ka nagunli
Ryl Catalig: 15 niload ko
Geli Baller: kung wala
Ryl Catalig: nagload ako 25
Geli Baller: so ano
Geli Baller: 5 piso lang tinira mo sakn
Geli Baller: why were u lying to me
Ryl Catalig: kaya nagtxt ako sayo dalawa
Geli Baller: why were u lying to me
Ryl Catalig: kasi u bug
-

fuck
Geli Baller: lying to me na
Geli Baller: again.
Geli Baller: that's where it starts
Geli Baller: maliit na lies
Geli Baller: tas lalaki na ulit

maybe it wasn't meant to work :(
i love you, goodbye.

fall 2009 grades

2009-12-22T13:30:00.000-08:00

so far, i am very pleased with my grades. magka B sa math, susko, regalong malaki na ng Diyos yun. ahaha. :']] masyado lang paexcite yung history teacher ko di pa nilalagay grade ko. sana makaC man lang ako.

hais.

2009-12-22T01:39:00.000-08:00

guess who's going to bed heartbroken, again, tonight?

bahala na nga :|

2009-12-22T01:26:00.001-08:00

MAGPAPASKO NA.
it doesn't even feel like it.
i can't be with him na nga, then lalo pa sya lumalayo.
maybe i am overreacting.
di ko na sya kukulitin anymore than i already did tonight.
kung gusto nya magparamdam, magpaparamdam sya.
kung ayaw nya, pagod na akong mamilit :(
heart breaking lang kasi pag di naman napipilit.
at saka mas maganda kung kusa,
di yung magttxt lang kasi tinakot mo ng break up.

tatapusin ko nalang pinapanood ko, tas baka matulog na lang ako. ayoko na magisip ng kung ano ano. pagod na ko. isa pa, di ko feel umiyak ngayon. ayaw ko talaga. ayaw ko. :]

boyfriend,

2009-12-22T01:15:00.000-08:00

i hate you so much right now. it's been a little more than 4 hours since you last txt'd me. you've been doing this to me for 3-4 consecutive nights already, and i am just about done with it. there is just so much neglect a girl like me could take.

i hate the fact that you know i couldn't break up with you permanently because i love you too much, and you know it. i hate the fact that you know i'm always waiting, therefore you're always abusing it.

at this very moment i am very scared. i am very scared because i am on the verge of letting you go, and each time you neglect me, you make the rope that i'm holding on to much thinner.

i hate the fact that each time i start hating you, you just know exactly what to do to thicken that rope again, and make me fall even harder for you, making it harder for me to let you go.

sabi mo wag kita papakawalan, kasi natatakot ka na baka magpasalo ka sa iba.. natatakot din ako na mangyari yun. ikaw, bat mo ko nineneglect? di ka ba natatakot na baka may ibang sumalo sakin? =/

is it too much to ask

2009-12-22T00:50:00.001-08:00

for a stupid txt from your boyfriend?
i guess so.. he's probably too busy flirting with the bridesmaids and what not at that stupid wedding.

fuck it. i'm tired of waiting.

magpapasko na. di na nga magkasama, ganyan pa. ENJOY!

mad pissed.

2009-12-22T00:17:00.001-08:00

nothing new.
i am mad pissed. =x

mmm.

2009-12-21T02:09:00.000-08:00

i hate the fact that there's just too many girls out there throwing their goddamn selves at your feet, but then i guess i should be proud with the fact that it's my boyfriend these girls are dreaming about. i guess i should also be thankful, because out of all the girls you could have you chose me, and there's no one else in this world you'd rather be with but me, and that you love me. ♥

suhweeet. ♥

2009-12-20T23:03:00.000-08:00

so couple days ago, or maybe a week ish ago, my boyfriend and i had a huge fight. i thought we'd never get back. i was on the verge of giving up. so yea, i broke my globe sim card in half. aha. :]]

stupid me, should have known better. should have known that break ups are temporary when it comes to us. basically the next day, we were in good terms again. ayun nga lang, wala na akong sim card. ahaha. being the sweet guy that he is, each day, he spent much more than he usually does because instead of being able to txt me for free (pag nakaunli sya), he has to spend a little more because he replies to my chikka account.

another sweet thing he did last night?

YEEESSSUHHHHH, he got me a sim card. :]]
well, technically, he got us both new sim cards. he got the ofw pack. one of the sim card's his, and the other one's for me! yeayy. that's how we were last year. magkamatch number namin! ahaha. anyway's can't wait to get my sim card. that way, we could txt more! yeayy.

anyways, we ate at a korean buffet not too long ago. ahah just had to share that. i'll upload pics one time. :p

the appeal of the taken guy.

2009-12-20T15:18:00.000-08:00

keep an eye on your boyfriend! single women are more attracted to men with girlfriends...attached men have shown their ability to commit, which is attractive to women. --women's health magazine.

OMG. ahaha. so true. this is why i get hella paranoid. i mean we're too far from each other, and trust me, i know a bunch of girls who wants to get with my boyfriend. he's all in one. grrr. akin lang sya though. akin lang.

akin//

Geli Baller: ok.
Geli Baller: dami nya stolen mo.
Ryl Catalig: wala naman na kaya
Geli Baller: meron pa..
Geli Baller: tas ung mga group pics nyo
Geli Baller: sknya ka nakatingin
Ryl Catalig: dont worry boo
Ryl Catalig: stolen man mga kuha nia
Ryl Catalig: di nya ma i`steal ung love ko for u
Ryl Catalig: ikaw lang ang kardel ko
Geli Baller: http://photos.friendster.com/photos/72/95/35495927/2_555836247l.jpg
Geli Baller: kardel?
Ryl Catalig: ikaw lang ang mask of death ko
Geli Baller: huh
Ryl Catalig:
Ryl Catalig: life steal +30%
Ryl Catalig: sa dota
Geli Baller: di ko getssss
Geli Baller: AMP
Ryl Catalig: so like
Ryl Catalig: ikaw ang humihigop ng lakas ko
Ryl Catalig: i love you

♥ MINE MINE MINE.

all i want for christmas.

2009-12-20T02:17:00.000-08:00

let's be realistic, ang bullshit kung world peace hihirit natin. life isn't a beauty pageant. blegh~ pero ang bullshit din kung iwiwish ko na sana magkasama kami sa pasko, kasi alam ko un ang wish na obvious naman na di mangyayari this year =/ so dahil excluded na yung wish na yun, wala na akong mahihiling. bwahahaha. :]]

kundi sana, mabawasan na pagaaway namin. pero more of dapat new year's resolution un diba? nasa Diyos ang awa, nasa tao ang gawa. i'ma really try to stop tripping, and blogging about hating on my boyfriend. aha. but he needs to get his shit right too.

well, i'm just happy we're ok na ulit. he really knows just what to do and say to make me smile, and make me fall inlove even harder. ♥

basta eto lang alam ko, kahit alam kong imposible na magkasama tayo sa pasko, basta akin ka lang forever and ever and ever, solve na ako.

si bf..

2009-12-20T00:06:00.001-08:00

NAKIKI`BLOGSPOT ;]]

http://omfryl.blogspot.com/

link nyo sya aa? ;]] lolx.

i hate you.

2009-12-19T23:23:00.000-08:00

Gels Baller: inde
Gels Baller: Love is when everyone tells you that it won’t work between you two, they give you a million reasons why it wouldn’t work, but you give them one why you’re sure it will.
Gels Baller: i guess this is love then.
gel.hubbyyy: ano ung one reason na un boo?
Gels Baller: i love you. that's enough reason for me to stay.

i hate that there seems to be nothing in this world that could ever make me stop loving you. and for that, i hate you.

ayoko umiyak. :(

2009-12-19T22:29:00.001-08:00

ayoko talaga.. :(

the further i go, the closer i get back to you..

2009-12-19T21:46:00.000-08:00

i was basically trying hard to not think about him. i cleaned my room (which i never do), i deactivated my facebook, i deleted my friendster, i didn't even log on to my ym {ryl.wifeyyy}, kaya lang, it seems like kahit anong gawin ko, things kept on making me think about him. like kanina sa Entertainment live, si derek ramsey, tas ininterview si angelica bout the part na madami nagkakagusto kay derek. basta yun na yun. tas eto pa.. tamang kalikot lang ako, tas sa feedjit ko, nakita ko may naggoogle ng username ko (omfgeliii). so i clicked it. tas ayun nakita ko mga luma kong blog. then kinalikot ko na. then i saw these. 2004 & 2005 blogs ko. hais. talagang pinapamiss sakin. :(

=/

2009-12-19T17:17:00.001-08:00

maybe we weren't meant to be.
i love you.
goodbye.

:(

2009-12-19T08:07:00.000-08:00

you don't get tired of loving someone. if you really love him, you won't. but nobody ever said that just cuz you love him so much, you're incapable of getting hurt, or that you could always tolerate them. and right now, i realized i can't. i'm tired of waiting for him to change. i'm tired of waiting for him to make me his priority, and not his option. it's not the fact that he's with his friends that's pissing me off. it's the fact that when he's with his friends, GIRL friends, he forgets all about me. what kind of bullshit is that? and the best he could give me was what? di ako nawawala sa isip nya? bullshit, di nga nawala, natabunan naman ng mga punyetang babaeng yon. magsama sama sila. tangina pagod na ko masaktan. pagod na ko na di nya iniintindi mafefeel ko. na magdamag nanaman ako nagantay sa wala. pano kasi, sanay na i'm always here. i'm tired. kung di nya ako kaya pahalagahan, the best i could do is to do that on my own. ang bullshit ng buhay. ang bullshit talaga. hate this shit. ayoko na. ayoko na talaga..

nyeta.

2009-12-19T07:56:00.000-08:00

di nagparamdam for more than 12 hours. sabi di sya aalis. sabi may pasok. sabi ng kaklase nya wala. tas tatawag ka sa bahay nya only to find out he's wit his social worker friends nanaman sa moa. take note they're all girls. bullshit. i'm done wit this crap. crazy texting him kagabi, didn't get shit from him. magsama sama sila. i'm fuckin done wit this mess. there are some things i don't need in my life. like stupid stressing. i am done. i'm not even gonna cry over this. he made his choice to neglect me again, and put them first before me. fuck that. have fun.

Sometimes you just have to realize that you can’t have it all. Some things are just out of your hands. you need to move on & try to be happy, even if it’s the hardest thing you’ll ever have to do.

i'm feeling this right now. sapul eh. sapul na sapul. tanginaaaaaaaaaaaaa. magsama sama talaga kayo!

tanginang sag yan.

2009-12-18T03:34:00.000-08:00

my sister just sent me this through facebook. [i know, it's 3:20 in the morning. what the hell is she still doing up?]

"Sagittarius is the sign of the centaur.|

You know - that half man, half horse guy who runs around with a bow and arrow. You haven't seen any? I have a couple in my stable. With my unicorn. Centaurs make awesome pets, except they're always trying to climb into my mermaid tank...

Kidding! :)

Now, the centaur is obviously a mythic animal, but it tells you a GREAT DEAL about people born under this exciting, fiery sign. Being half man, this natural "9th" sign of the zodiac has a higher, philosophical nature that's full of faith, morals, ethics, values, and honesty.

But being half animal, it's one of the most lusty, "roving," impatient signs, capable of infidelity and restlessness.

Being an archer, men born here are your classic "alpha males" in relationships. They LOVE to hunt, and chase, and AIM HIGH.

For this reason do NOT call him, take him out, cook him dinner, or initiate in any way until he's done so for you AT LEAST a hundred times...

(The women that wrote that crazy book "The Rules" must have dated their share of Sagittarius men...)

Be sure to get behind his ambitions, as he'll be wildly enthusiastic about them, and always "chasing" after the latest crazy, BIG scheme. Give a Sag plenty of room to "run around" otherwise he'll start to feel "caged" in. And they LOVE the great outdoors, so need lots of time in nature. Men and women of this sign always have lots of friends of BOTH genders, and they will not tolerate a MINUTE of jealousy - so give them their freedom or lose them forever! And be sure to encourage that they travel (it's that nomadic animal thing again). If they don't have the chance to "mix up" their environment I recommend they at least take day trips, or try new restaurants, to keep things "fresh" and new.

Being a mutable sign and the natural sign of foreign travel, they LOVE visiting foreign places, and when in Rome, they'll feel Roman. When in France, they'll feel French. When in Texas, they'll become a cowboy. In other words, if you're with a Sag, you may find he's always changing with the scenery.

This sign is ruled by the planet Jupiter, the planet of friendliness, wisdom, and higher knowledge. For this reason, those born under this upbeat, positive sign LOVE to be of help and support - they know so much about so much, that you may be tempted to call them "know it all"...

But DON'T.

You'll wound their pride, which is rather large. Being a fire sign, they CRAVE admiration, respect, and praise. They have HUGE ambitions and won't be happy until they're in charge, or given lots of opportunity.

They'll melt like butter at your feet from compliments, appreciation, and attention.

At social gatherings, they may dominate the action, telling witty jokes and stories, and acting as though they own the place. (Or like they don't care who does! :))

they have be sure to send LOTS of signals to any person they like, or that person may just think the sag's being friendly because the sag's that way with everyone.

Their magnanimous, fun-loving nature just genuinely wants everyone to have a good time.

If you want to inspire a Sag to "chase" you - then be upbeat, open, honest, athletic, and "going for it" in your own life, too. Be independent, and ready for a spontaneous, exciting thrill ride that you'll never forget. And, if he decides that you're the woman for him (which may take a while - he's GOT to "sow his oats" before settling down) be sure to always be learning, and "up for anything" as it will never be a dull moment with this stimulating man of action.

Now, you may not know there are actually THREE sub-signs within the sign of Sagittarius...And people born in each are VERY different from one another in relationships.

So you might get along GREAT with a man who is one of them, but not with a man of one ofthe others. They're THAT specific and distinct, even though they all fall in the same larger sign..."

bold means it's true. cuz i'm dating one. that's how he is. blah.

and then. this. via chikka. it pissed me off. =/

geli:(December 18, 2009 02:31:09)
im tired of getting jealous.. have fun wit them. go ask em. sila nagupload diba? kayo kayo nagpicturan.
BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 18, 2009 03:04:04)
pauwi nko. hmm.
geli:(December 18, 2009 03:04:37)
ngayon k lng magrrply. tas rply mo pa parang di mo nabasa last txt ko. ayos
BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 18, 2009 03:06:06)
wag ka na nga magselos. i love u.
geli:(December 18, 2009 03:07:16)
u spent time wit them, not txting me, then you're telln me to stop getting jealous?ayos.
BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 18, 2009 03:08:13)
eh wla nman dpat kaselos. wlang mlisya dun.
geli:(December 18, 2009 03:09:34)
kung yan din ang irason ko kung di ako sasagot s mga txt mo dahil may ksama akong mga lalake na tropa ko. payag ka? ok lang?
BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 18, 2009 03:10:49)
gmgnti ka n nun. at kbbae mo n tao, gnun ggwn mu. bka maharot ka.
geli:(December 18, 2009 03:11:27)
see that's the shitty part about u. u could go head and act like that bec. ur a guy, and u think its ok kaht na its hurting me, cuz ur a guy.
BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 18, 2009 03:14:16)
oo. lalake ako. wlng nwwla smin. puri at dgnidad as is. nbbangasan lng pg knukupal kmi ng bbae. and pranoid ka lng. pra nman mlisyoso gngwa nmin.
geli:(December 18, 2009 03:14:55)
malisyoso o hindi, but u forget about me when ur wit them.
BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 18, 2009 03:16:11)
nvr ka nwla s icp ko geli. tndaan mu yan. mahal kta. wag ka n mparanoid ok.
geli:(December 18, 2009 03:17:16)
yea. you stop txting me when ur wit them.
BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 18, 2009 03:20:31)
dat dont min n nwwla ka s icp ko. hays. mahal n mahal kta. mwwlan n ko load. sna mblan n kta ng sim. amf. wag mu n ccraen ha!
geli:(December 18, 2009 03:21:51)
:( well, stop giving me reasons to. :(

italic means - tanginang rason yan.

='/

2009-12-18T02:36:00.001-08:00

i wish i could just tell myself to stop giving a fuck. then maybe i'd stop getting jealous. and then maybe, just maybe, i wouldn't get hurt each stupefuckn time.

hassle noh?

2009-12-18T02:20:00.000-08:00

Geli Baller:nkakainis ung feeling na parang
Geli Baller: gusto mo mkpgbreak\
Geli Baller: kasi sawa k n mgselos
Geli Baller: sawa ka n maparanoid
Geli Baller: pero mahal mo
Gia Lat: oo hndi mo magawa tlga kasi super na mahal mo..
Geli Baller: kaburat noh?
Gia Lat: oo parang hay naku di ko na lamgagawin ko..

i thought wrong.

2009-12-16T21:56:00.000-08:00

thought today was gonna be a good day. :(

i turned in a 2 page essay for my finals in humanities. i didn't know it was supposed to be a minimum of 3 pages.
i rushed my math test because i had to go pee =|
boyfriend and i fought.
that automatically means, the rest of my night got fucked up.
and just when i thought it couldn't get any worst, i fell down the stairs, and i could've sworn i heard somebody laughing, but i was too pissed to care.
he hasn't txtd me yet..
i still have a history final to finish online tomorrow.

this day blows.

miss me? =p

2009-12-16T10:24:00.000-08:00

HAHA. isang araw na di ako magpost seems forever to me. i am such a blogwhore, that's why.

anyways, i'm at school right now and currently waiting for my 11pm class. it's finals. it's kinda stupid that we couldn't just email our paper for humanities, when all we're doing today is turn in the paper & then leave. i could've gotten some nice extra sleep. blah ~

i slept pretty late last night. being the stupid procrastinator that i am, i needed to cram all my papers in that was due today. slept around what? 2am? (syempre, nanood na rin ako ng dahil may isang ikaw. lol. FUCK YOU REDDDD FUCK YOU. ;]] ) anyways, woke up at the 5:45am to get ready. it's stupid cuz my class isn't even starting till 11. amp. but i had to get a ride from my mom since my dad couldn't drop me off today. so i was at school pretty early. like around 7:30am, i was already here. good thing my boyfriend kept me company for awhile. then he had to go sleep narin. then i started doing my math notes. fell asleep in the library. gah. it's almost 11, so here's the plan:

turn in humanities paper and then buy scantrons.
go back to the library and start reviewing for anthropology test tonight.
get some sleep if there's extra time.
math finals at 2pm.
more studying for anthro after taking math finals.
have early dinner with mom at 4:30pm {hella fucken early ;x}
go back to school, take anthro finals!
done for the day? unfortunately, nopesss.
review for history, and take online test tomorrow morning!
done for this semester!!

hahaha i am so psyched! i swear i am so ready to start sleeping late again and sleeping in the next morning. yeayy for being able to stay up late and talk to the boyfriend whenever and not having to worry about waking up early the next morning! love it. <3

relief.

2009-12-14T16:12:00.000-08:00

even if deyr ugly and ur beatiful guys still cheat

--friend of mine told me this. made me feel better. at least i know nothing's wrong with me. :]]

ym detector. :]]

2009-12-14T06:52:00.000-08:00

bwahahahhaha. kinilig ako. this is one of his oldest ym's tas chineck ko sa ym detector. ahah kinilig ako. kasi, ako avatar nya. :]]

babaw? wala ka na dun!

more kilig txts. :]]

2009-12-14T00:46:00.001-08:00

all from today. (via chikka)

geli:(December 13, 2009 23:31:31)
boo muwe ka na ba? txt mo ko. ingat ka i love you
geli:(December 13, 2009 23:43:43)
boo aba naman.
geli:(December 14, 2009 00:18:39)
boooooooo!!! :( imy.
geli:(December 14, 2009 00:23:48)
boo dito ka reply ah, bka kasi nakalmtan mo, alaws ako simcard.
BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 14, 2009 00:27:24)
i mis u too. i love u.
geli:(December 14, 2009 00:27:37)
bat ngayon ka lang replyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. gr. san ka na? ingat ka. i love you. behave.
BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 14, 2009 00:39:52)
mis n kta mksma. hmm. i love u.
geli:(December 14, 2009 00:41:07)
natatanggp mo b mga txt ko? bat di mo sinasagot ung tanong ko. sabi ko asan ka na? miss n din kita kasama. i love you.
BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 14, 2009 00:42:09)
d ko nttngap. haha. d2 me bus. mahal n mahal kta geli.
geli:(December 14, 2009 00:42:45)
well at least tanggp mo ung last! hehe i miss you grr. kilig ako ur wasting pantxt for me. aww i love you so much more boo.

BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 14, 2009 00:48:31)

lol. aus lng. wla nman ako kc ktxt n iba. kaw lng. d lng tlga ko mkreply pg nage'sf kc mnsan ako lng inaashan ng team. haha.

geli:(December 14, 2009 00:49:33)

wahaha ikaw na ang magaling. pero super kilig tlga ako. see mabait nmn ako pag pnapansin mo ko dbaa@ di nga kta niaway knina ee! improvinggg! were u happy?

BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 14, 2009 00:53:40)

uu. pro ms msya ako kung gngwa mu yn d lng dhl cnbi ko. gs2 ko gs2 mu dn. d2 me nkskay s ordnary bus. wla aircon. 2o php lng.

geli:(December 14, 2009 00:55:09)

well ginawa k un di dahil gusto ko magsf ka. haha. gnawa ko un kasi alam ko gusto mo and ayoko na magaway nnmn tau dahil dun. ayoko n magaway. ima really try this time. bat jan ka. tipid mode?

BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 14, 2009 00:57:33)

uu. wla nko pera eh. nyahaha! 3 hours nga lng ako knina s shop. kkaiba un! lol. ggwa p kc ako reaction paper.

geli:(December 14, 2009 00:58:36)

ok yan. ill help u when i get home. mahal kitaaaaa

BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 14, 2009 01:00:02)

nasan k po b? d2 plng me leverza eh. :] ah. mahal n mahal kta. akin ka lng ha!

galing kay atir :]] ♥

2009-12-14T00:05:00.000-08:00

nittry nya ako icheer up sa problema ko kagabi/kaninang umaga, at biruin mo, feel na feel ko, ang lakas ko pala kay atir. nigawan ako ng video. sya ung nakanta. bilib ka noh? :]] labyu atir. ♥

magastos. :]]

2009-12-13T20:02:00.000-08:00

BAY'B00; BiEH: (December 13, 2009 19:39:19)

mgastos ka mging gelpren. haha. i love u.

HAHAH. ♥

sinira ko kasi yung roaming ko na simcard nung nagalit ako kagabi, so di nya ako matxt sa globe, kelangan sa chikka. he's going to buy me a sim card soon, and change his number na rin. ;]]

all cried out. but it's all worth it.

2009-12-13T11:34:00.000-08:00

i never knew how much i really don't want to lose him, till i called him up, and begged him to stay when he said that nothing could change his mind about his decision. i literally straight up told him i don't care if he has another girl anymore, or if he fucks other girls, just for him to stay with me. yeap. never thought i would actually hear those words coming out my mouth. he was asking me if i even knew what i was talking about. and yes i had an idea of what i was saying and i meant it. effective naman. ahaha. after a long ass drama, he ended up saying na he'd remember this day kasi first time ko daw sinabi na ok lang may iba sya. cute part?
pinagalitan nya ako. he told me to never say that again, cuz i'm his wifey and he would never treat me as a bitch, and kahit na sinabi ko daw yun, he'd never do that to me.

each time i find a reason to hate him, he gives me more reasons to keep on loving him, so much more than i did, a second ago. f`real though. ♥

cheer up.. :(

2009-12-13T08:27:00.000-08:00

"cheer up. its not the end of the world and u can find another person who won't break your heart. u jus gotta accept the fact that it has to be a different person." --junior.

:(

guys.

2009-12-13T01:30:00.000-08:00

stolen from erika's tumblr.

1. A man won’t let go if he really loves you.
Do not hold on to someone who has let go of you. He does not love you and does not value having you. Believe me, he will not let go if he really loves you. There is another reason he is not willing to tell.
-- he won't let go...

2. Do not look for reasons why he ended the relationship.
There is only one reason why he ended your relationship. He just does not love you. Do not waste your time thinking of reasons or what you should have done. Move on and be open to a man who will truly love you.

3. Do not get hang up on your past.
Do not nag or distrust your current boyfriend just because your ex hurt you. Do not treat him or the relationship the same way. Do not compare. He will not react the same way as your ex. Do not be worried that your simple mistakes will cause him to look for another girl. What happened with your ex was not your fault. It was not because you didn’t guard him enough or you didn’t make him happy enough.

4. Do not look into images.
How many times have you met a girl who didn’t have the best image in school or at the office, but you get to know the girl and found out she was actually extremely nice? Do not rely on images. Oftentimes, it is far from reality. Do not fear men just because your “supposedly” perfect ex-boyfriend mistreated you.

5. Always have your own set of rules.
Set your limits on how far you’d go for a guy. It’s perfectly ok to give and do everything as long as it’s worth it. And it’s worth it if the guy is treating you right.
---he is worth it. i guess i just wasn't. :(

6. Do not be scared to lose him.
Don’t be scared that he’ll break up with you. Once you are afraid of losing him, you easily can be taken advantage. Be strong and if something is unacceptable, do not accept it and speak up.

7. Avoid calling your guy.
It’s a guy thing. The relationship will definitely be better if it’s the guy who’s calling, not the girl. He will get tired of you if you keep on calling. He will lose interest and challenge. More so, he will get annoyed. But it’s a girl thing also that your fingers get too itchy until you dial his number. But avoid as much as possible. Call only if really needed (like checking if your suspicions are reasonable).

8. There is a guy who will value you.
There is a guy out there who can make you feel valued, appreciated, and loved. And I mean, not just during your first few weeks together. So don’t lose hope. Don’t settle for a lesbian if you are not attracted to women. There is a man out there who can love you like a girl can. Also, do not believe him when he says it’s just the way he really is. He’s not the sweet or expressive-type. Remember during your first few weeks together? Where has that sweet guy gone? He simply is not that into you anymore.
---heartbreaking.
9. Always be the only one, no matter what.
Do not ever fall for a guy who has another girl, be it his wife, girlfriend, or any girl that he says he just can’t get rid of for whatever reason. If you truly believe that he loves you and for some reason, he can’t leave or let go of another girl, then you are no different from any ordinary mistress.
---
10. He must respect you.
No matter how long the relationship has been, he should always show respect towards you.

11. If he fooled you, end it.
Philandering once is enough. You can never trust nor respect the person again.
---
12. Never start a relationship the wrong way.
Do not steal another girl’s man, for whatever reason. If the man really loves the girl, he would always end up going back to her no matter how hard you try to keep him. You’ll end up hurting yourself. Nor should you enter a relationship for the wrong reasons (loneliness, on the rebound, getting back at your ex, man-dependency, etc.) it is bound not to last. You will only end up wasting more years of your life.

13. Do not force yourself into a relationship.
Do not get into a relationship just because your friends are getting impatient with your dating escapades and the one hasn’t come yet. Do not choose who to say yes to based on superficial things like money, looks, cars, etc.. If you are even thinking of these things, you have not fallen in love yet.

14. Do not settle.
If you are not happy anymore with your relationship, break up instantly. He will not stay with you forever no matter how upright he might seem to be. Eventually, he will also want love and happiness in his life.

15. A relationship has to have love.
Love is the only thing that will push you to give your efforts into making the relationship work. And believe me, keeping a relationship requires genuine efforts of both parties.

16. Don’t be afraid to be single.
It’s fun to be single, try it. You can go out whenever and wherever you want. You are free. You can date whomever you want and you get to go out for free! Do not get a boyfriend just for the sake of having one. Do not settle.

17. Be a good girl.
Be a good girl to attract a good guy. Enter the relationship with sincere intentions. Take the guy and the relationship seriously with the plan of spending the rest of your life with that person (of course, this is after you had your bit of fun in your younger years). If you compare your flings from your real relationships, you will know that the latter makes you happier and more fulfilled.

18. Love without limits.
Whether you loved and gave everything or loved but held out for some things, if the relationship ends, you still get hurt. But if you gave your everything, you were happy and you could say that it was worth it. If you didn’t give your all, you get hurt for nothing.
-- it is. very worth it. <3

19. You will get over him.
Love is over-stated. Love eventually ends and you are free to love another.

20. Be the one.
Act like you are the one. Don’t be a nagger. Don’t hinder his gimmicks. Don’t give in to him too easily. Make him treat you as important. Don’t be easy. Don’t be like every other girl he had in his life.

--ayan. nagger kasi ako eh. :) buhay.

:)

2009-12-13T00:03:00.000-08:00

thank you atir.
alam mo na kung bakit. ♥

i just need time to get myself together.
i did the first step earlier. i'll be fine.

fuck. ang paranoid ko.

2009-12-12T20:00:00.000-08:00

Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:38:52 PM): twag ka ulit sbhn mo kay manang gisingin si ryl.
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:38:55 PM): importante lng
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:38:59 PM): sbhn mo si armi ka
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:39:02 PM): pnsn ni ate gel
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:39:10 PM): tas pag olin mo
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:39:12 PM): di ba yun magagalit?
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:39:13 PM): pag di nya ginising
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:39:23 PM): either may katabi un
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:39:24 PM): o wala dun
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:39:37 PM): yaan mo sya magalit. kung mgglit un, sakin lang. haha
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:39:57 PM):
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:40:05 PM): sige teka. ano ulit number?
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:40:38 PM): 8747241
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:40:45 PM): sbhn mo kay manang importante lang
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:41:00 PM): sige sige
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:41:14 PM): pag tinanong kung bakit?
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:41:40 PM): sbhn mo importante lang tungkol kay ate gel
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:41:42 PM): may nangyare kasi
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:41:44 PM): un sbhn mo
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:41:45 PM): hahaha
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:41:50 PM): lol
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:41:54 PM): hahahha. osige sige
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:41:58 PM): yaan mo syang isipng naospital ako or wtver
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:42:05 PM): pag sinabi mo yan at di nagsing si ryl
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:42:08 PM): me ibig sbhn na un.
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:42:16 PM): dapat seryoso ka ah
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:42:20 PM): osige sige
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:43:00 PM): ayan.. titignan nia daw kung magigising
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:43:03 PM): kk
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:43:25 PM): tinanong kung pumunta daw ako kagabi
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:43:41 PM): bket wala b sya kagabi
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:43:46 PM): hahaha
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:44:05 PM): hahahahahah
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:44:10 PM): ayan na!
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:44:12 PM): gising na
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:44:16 PM): hahaha
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:44:18 PM): sabi ko mag online na sya
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:44:21 PM): ano sbi
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:44:23 PM): galit]?
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:44:24 PM): hahaha
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:44:31 PM): oh okay na! wag ka na maparanoid okee
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:44:37 PM): hindi hindi.
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:44:39 PM): hahaha
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:44:44 PM): ano sabi sayo
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:44:45 PM): inaantok lang yung boses
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:45:04 PM): sabi ko saorry kasi nagising ko sya.
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:45:08 PM): o ano sabi nya
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:45:09 PM): sabi nia okay lang
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:45:14 PM): tapos
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:45:15 PM): sabi ko magonline sya
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:45:19 PM): o tapos
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:45:20 PM): sabi nia sige daw
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:45:27 PM): tapos
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:45:28 PM): hahaha
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:45:29 PM): tas tinanong kung kamusta daw kuya
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:45:32 PM): ayun
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:45:37 PM): ah nagpunta nga si kuya
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:45:41 PM): oo nga e.
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:45:48 PM): aba close sila
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:45:50 PM): o tapos
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:46:07 PM): ayun. sabi ko okay na. nakalayas na nga e. hahaha
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:46:12 PM): hahahahhaha
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:46:30 PM): mejo umok ako. pero paranoid parina ko. tagal nya magol
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:46:33 PM): baka natulog nnmn un
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:46:35 PM): amp un tlga
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:46:50 PM): hahaha. atleast alam mong nasa bahay sya
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:46:57 PM): and kung gumisng
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:46:59 PM): for geli
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:47:03 PM): ibig sbhn walang babae dun
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:47:05 PM): or else
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:47:09 PM): di sya ggisingn ni manang
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:47:10 PM): dba
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:47:11 PM): o diba. haha
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:47:17 PM): unless pokpok ung babae
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:47:19 PM): at walang pakialam
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:47:26 PM): nice. o ayan! wag ka na maburat dian
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:47:28 PM): narinig mo b na ginigisn sya ni manang
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:47:35 PM): hindi e.
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:47:53 PM): di parin sya nagool
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:47:56 PM): gaaaaaahh nyeta
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:00 PM): anyways ibahin ang usapan
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:48:02 PM): baka kakain lang
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:04 PM): bat nagpunta jan ung punyetang
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:06 PM): chinita na un
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:48:15 PM): malay ko.
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:23 PM): galit na galit kaya dun si ma
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:24 PM): hahaha
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:48:25 PM): siguro niyaya ni kuya na punta sa bday ni kuya ryl
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:31 PM): amp
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:48:32 PM): osige na ate gel
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:48:37 PM): magdedentist pa ako e
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:38 PM): ayaw nga mkta un ni ryl eh
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:41 PM): hahaha
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:48:41 PM): kwentuhan kita maya!
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:48:43 PM): hahahaha
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:44 PM): sige sige
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:45 PM): ingat
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:46 PM): mua
Geli Baller (12/12/2009 7:48:48 PM): love you
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:48:56 PM): ingat! miss ya!
-armi. Angue (12/12/2009 7:48:59 PM): looove you!

putaaaaaaaaaaaaa. di parin ol :(

di ako makaconcentrate

2009-12-12T18:23:00.001-08:00

PUTANGINA. :(

over & over again..

2009-12-12T17:34:00.001-08:00

he wrote this sa surprise blog nya sakin.. this is the only thing that's making me smile right now.. read it a couple of times. tanginang buhay.

Alam ko boo, madami na tayong pinagdaanang masasaklap sa buhay natin nung tayo na.. tipong halos araw-araw gumagawa yung tadhana ng ikagagalit mo sakin or ikakatampo.. pero kahit ganun pa man, gusto ko lang malaman mo na wala na akong ibang gusto kundi ikaw lang.. mahal na mahal kita.. higit pa sa sarili ko at higit pa sa akala kong kaya kong ibigay.. you saved boo.. you saved my life.. thank you.. you mean the world to me.. di ko na talaga alam ang gagawin ko pag nawala ka pa.. sana habang buhay ka ng andito sa tabi ko, mapa-literal man o hindi.. sayo lang ako at sana'y palagi ka din akin.. wala na akong ibang hihilingin pa kundi ang makita kang masaya sa piling ko.. i love you geli.. more than anything.. wag ka na mawawala sakin ha. :] you will always be my one and only.. my geli boo. <3

i miss him already :(

2009-12-12T16:37:00.000-08:00

it's been hella hours since we've last spoken. no txt msgs. no nothing. i guess it was my fault tho. i trip too much. but really though, can you blame me?

he held his party last night, so he probably won't be up till later. or maybe later than expected. depends if he got over me, and met a new girl last night. i know, it might've been a little exaggerated, but hey, it could happen. i know a lot of girls that are so willing to give him that birthday sex. life. :]]

i slept till 3pm today. actually, i woke up pretty early, round 8, but i kept on going back to bed. i didn't want to wake up yet knowing that his party hasn't ended yet, or i would've driven myself crazy with all of my crazy paranoia. i still have a lot going on in my head. but hey, at least i'm about to go sleep soon again in a couple of hours, then i wouldn't have to suffer longer.

but anyways. i saw this earlier.

i mean really? who googles my boyfriend's yahoo messenger username? obssessed much?

:(

2009-12-12T00:23:00.000-08:00

ako nalang muna lalayo. masyado kasi akong lapit ng lapit. ayan tuloy. ayaw ako kausapin. mas gusto nya pa iba kausap. kaya pag ako ang online, daming dahilan. :]]

katuwa eh. dami dami pumapansin sakin, di ko pnapansin. tas ung gusto ko pansinin ako. iba pinapansin. saklap ba? ahaha. ~~dineactivate ko na facebook ko~~. dinelete ko narin ung app sa cellphone ko para di ako maglog in. bullshit kasi. nakakatampo. oo na oa ako. pero masakit un. na pag iba, sige kahit nagawa ng homework, kung magwallpost sunod sunod, pero pag ikaw na, ayan na sang katutak na dahilan.

sya priority mo. ikaw? last resort lang. saya noh?
di ako nagpapaawa. aanhin ko ang awa? gusto ko oras nya. un lang. ung madami.
pero kung di nya maibigay. eh di lumayo. umiwas sa sakit. tangnang yan.
ano iiyak nnmn ako? mukha na kong putangnang langgam sa bug's life twing naiyak ako.
punyetang buhay to.

magaaral nalang ako.
pero bukas ko nalang sisimulan. ngayon? ewan.

tanginang kaisa isang bestfriend ko na nakakaintindi sakin, tulog pa. punyeta. :( hais.
punyetaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

hirap magmahal ng gwapo :(

bat ganon?

2009-12-12T00:02:00.001-08:00

twing akala ko we're at our best, something happens and proves me wrong. :(
ayoko na..

kaso pano yon? mahal ko pa.

di na ako mangengealam :(

2009-12-11T22:46:00.001-08:00

do whatever you want to do to whoever, with whoever, whenever, wherever.
bat pa ko mangingialam? wala ka rin naman pakialam sa nararamdaman ko.

punyetang buhay to.

:(

2009-12-11T22:10:00.001-08:00

gusto ko matulog. ung di na ako magigising.

officially.

2009-12-11T01:34:00.001-08:00

ba't ganon, twing i just finished doing something majorly sweet, something meant to make him want to spend more time on me, he ends up doing something so upsetting?

officially hate this day, and officially does not want to celebrate monthsaries anymore. :(

tutulog na nga lang siguro ako. nyt :(

talk about unappreciated..

28 months.

2009-12-10T23:49:00.000-08:00

since we aren't together yet, (because of the shitty distance), this will have to do for now. aha. guess what? i accepted! AHAHA :]] anywayssssss. today is our 28th monthsary! yessir! can you believe that? i was shock too myself. so much shit have happened in just 2 years and 4 months, that it is so amazing that we got through it all. damn i think we done been through all types of hell.

types of hell we've encountered?

yung hell na akala namin mamamatay na kami, kasi we thought sasalvagein kami ng *toot* police. kasi naman super madaling araw, nagmomotor trip kami with his friends from lpc to *toot* tas tamang tambay sa shell. tapos biglang may police car, na nagpapatugtog ng rap. (bwahaha, aminin ko natawa ako non.) hanggang sa hinuli kami kasi merong walang plaka [bf ko], at me walang rehistro. basically that night napagtripan kami. big time. pinakain kami ng bulalo, and i could've sworn akala naming lahat last supper na namin un. madami pa kaming police encounters. nung nakasagasa kami ng nagbbike while singing dilemma nung last day ko sa pinas. good thing? nasugatan lang naman ung nagbbike. ano pa ba? nung nahuli kami kasi di kami nakahelmet! at saka sa cinema 1. :]]
other parties. i never thought we'd ever end up having other people butting into our relationship, but it happened. we were so far apart from each other, and things happened. basically one mistake caused another. and unfortunately, the wound that shit had created is still in our hearts. :(
extra parties. yung mga di pinansin pero nonstop singit that they still ended up fucking up our relationship.
family matters. telenovela hell story. the typical "i don't want you for my daughter" kind of thing. tipong tatakas, at mapapagalitan. basta, i won't elaborate on this so much.
money problems. from pangungutang kay manang may pang isaw lang kami, hanggang sa issue na ginagamit lang daw nung isa ung isa.
fights. daily arguments. over petty things. overreacting.

marami pa. pero i guess yan yung mga main.siguro sa tagal namin na naging kami, i'm pretty sure wala pang 1 year yung talagang nagkasama kami in person. pero despite that fact, andami paring nangyare. and kahit papano, some of the ones mentioned above are still trying to fuck up our relationship. pero i am very happy. kasi relationship's a two way street. tipong pag ako burat na burat, sya yung nagpapasensya. and the good part about us is that, walang masyadong mapride para magsorry. we fight so much na himala pag lumipas ang isang araw na di ako nagtampo o nagselos. kaya nga it is so amazing that kahit andami nang umextra, andami na nagooffer sa kanya na they could give him more than i could daw, pero ako parin yung pinipili nya. and oo, malandi sya, (not that i'm trying to justify his actions, because believe me burat ako pag nakakabalita ako ng mga ganun), pero i'm glad that he never ever did pick them over me. kaya kahit naiinis ako, at minsan di mapigilang umiyak pag may chismis, in the back of my head, somewhere (haha!), i'm still thankful na he never drops me for them. honestly, di ko naman talaga mapapatunayan kung hanggang flirt lang talaga, or may nangyare saknya at sa mga nalink sakanya diba? for fuck's sake, i'm in the US. pero kahit na super hirap, and kahit na i'm pretty sure di yun ang ipinapakita ko sakanya dahil sa araw araw na pagti-t.h. ko, alam ko na the best i could do is to actually trust him, na he's learned his lesson na and that he would never ever do anything to break my heart anymore. ♥

wow, this shit is long. :]]
basta, the main point is:

NO MATTER HOW SHITTY THINGS GET,
I`MA ALWAYS LOVE YOU.

HAPPY 28th MONTHSARY RYL`B00 ♥
(that's 2 years & 4 months!)

formspring.me

2009-12-09T23:29:00.001-08:00

Ask me anything http://formspring.me/omfgeliii

:]]

2009-12-09T09:32:00.000-08:00

BOYFRIEND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAYYYY!!!

what's worst than getting your heart broken?

2009-12-07T21:03:00.001-08:00

not having anyone to talk to about it cuz you know the most they could tell you is i told you so.
and knowing the only thing that could make everything better is the person who broke your heart.

bo*

formspring.me

for the millionth time

taking baby steps.

formspring.me

it's been..

=[

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

i wanted this.

inggit?

boy problems* via AIM

3rd day.

mm

:)

kung totoo yun.. papatunayan nya..

amp*

fuhressssssssssssssh*

makes sense.

as if i'm not dealing wit too much already..

ayako na..

love*scope.

almost.

ewan.

i love you gelatin*

nananadya ang facebook.

alam mo yung feeling..

cliffhanger vs. badboys ii.

formspring.me

decided*

HELL NO*

veintinueve.

YOU'RE FUCKN STUPID.

underconstruction

new year ♥

=]]

players.

daddy <3

sikat ?

puta. adik?

glad i gave it another shot.

Ryl Catalig kanta ko sayo, promise. magbabago na ako. ♥

love ko tong mga itey. ♥

no letting go.

tangina.

i don't want it anymore 2009-12-27T14:00:00.001-08:00 enough said. moving on :]]you're a good ass liar.i don't think i could ever find somebody better than you.you're the best at this game.you hung yourself 10 feet over the edge.

inggitera.

major wasak.

bob marley..

adik.

the difference

answeet. :]]

Tin Nicole Macalino woi. late ko nnman sya mssbi sau late ndin kc nitxt skin ni ryl eh . kagabi! sorry daw sa lahat ng ginawa nia. mahal na mahal kadw nia . kht ano dw mngyri ndi mag bbgo pagmamal nia for you.

fuck.

auntie telly ♥

SATURDAY, JANUARY 24, 2009

mommy number 2. =]]

merry christmas <3

videophone. :]]

i bug. :]

fall 2009 grades

hais.

bahala na nga :|

boyfriend,

is it too much to ask

mad pissed.

mmm.

suhweeet. ♥

the appeal of the taken guy.

all i want for christmas.

si bf..

i hate you.

ayoko umiyak. :(

the further i go, the closer i get back to you..

=/

:(

nyeta.

tanginang sag yan.

='/

i wish i could just tell myself to stop giving a fuck. then maybe i'd stop getting jealous. and then maybe, just maybe, i wouldn't get hurt each stupefuckn time.

hassle noh?

i don't want it anymore
2009-12-27T14:00:00.001-08:00
enough said. moving on :]]
you're a good ass liar.
i don't think i could ever find somebody better than you.
you're the best at this game.

you hung yourself 10 feet over the edge.